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Sober for 19 days

Today was the 19th day of my freedom from alcohol. Till a few days ago I used to say “dry” but now I┬áprefer the word “free”. Being sober is being free.

I stopped drinking 19 days ago. I went to a psychiatrist and he prescribed me some medication, to help me get over my anxiety, during my withdrawal stage. It helped. The medication managed to get over the first few days of acute withdrawal.

The biggest problem, during those first few days, was that I couldn’t take a break from my normal routine. I had to function normally at work. I own my own company. It’s a small startup, so I don’t get to take too many holidays. I have taken advantage of being the boss, and slacked off quite a bit during the past few days, to take out some quiet time for myself.

I joined a gym. Its been about a week now. I haven’t missed a day. I usually go in the mornings. The mornings feel so peaceful. I have been pushing myself. trying to channelize my negativity into my workouts, pushing myself harder and harder.

Exercise has helped a lot. It takes away my demons. It drains me. Empties me out. For a few hours after I come from the gym, the endorphins in my system, keep me in a good mood.

I stopped writing in this blog for a while. I kept giving up alcohol and kept relapsing. This time will be different. This time is the last time.

I will try to be regular on this blog. Put down a few thoughts everyday. All part of my therapy.


Avoiding alcohol

I am an alcoholic. Although a large part of me denies this fact, it is true. There is no use denying this fact. I am an alcoholic and I’ll always be one.

Nowadays I avoid going out as much as possible. The urge to visit a winestore and buying alcohol is too great. I won’t be able to resist it. My mind will give justifications and arguments on how being drunk one more night is okay. If I go to the winestore and buy a bottle, I know I am going to finish the bottle, skip dinner and probably blackout. If I don’t blackout I will sleep like a log and get up late next morning with a hangover. As soon as I wake up, one of the first thoughts in my mind will be how this was the last time I would ever drink.

So I avoid going out as much as possible. But this is really hard. Can’t get ahead in life if I hang around at home all day. I have to find a way to go out and avoid the temptation. Maybe I’ll just avoid places where there are wineshops.