First day – so far so good

It is hard to describe to others what being an alcoholic is like. My mind keeps coming back to the topic of alcohol. If I am watching something on TV and I see someone having a drink, all I can think of is how nice it would be to have a drink. It’s the same if I am reading a book or reading something on the Internet. The trick is in admitting to myself that it’s just my alcoholic brain trying to trick me.
I know the next few days will be tough. There’s going to be a lot of temptation. I am going to go though a roller coaster ride of mood swings. I have been though this many times before. Giving up alcohol without rehab is very difficult. No amount of determination and willpower can guarantee results. But I’ve realised that writing in this blog helps. Knowing that there are other people out there reading my words, feeling my pain, helps.
Maybe this time I will be able to do it. So far so good.



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