First day of sobriety is over

Today was my first day of sobriety. It was the first day of my new life without Alcohol or Marijuana. It was difficult. I felt edgy and irritated. I got angry. I felt depressed. I couldn’t handle situations well. But I survived the day without alcohol and marijuana, and I am feeling rather good about myself.

They say that the first few days of abstinence are the most difficult. I am not sure that I will be able to survive too many days like today, but I have to try. I have to come out of this addiction. It is destroying me.

I wonder how many days will it take for my cravings for alcohol and marijuana to subside. They say that addiction is a life long disease. If that’s the case this curse will be with me for till the day I die. That’s a scary thought.

Another scary thought. Will I be able to enjoy life without my alcohol and weed? Will I be able to enjoy going for a long drive, listening to music or attending a party without getting high? Till yesterday I needed to get high to enjoy life and its simple pleasures. What will life be like without alcohol or weed?


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