Addiction really takes away everything. I have lost everything. Just a year ago I had everything that anyone would want. But I didn’t notice. I was busy getting high or drunk. Mostly getting drunk.
I lost my job and my confidence. Now it’s survival. I don’t have enough money to buy a couple of packs of cigarettes. In a day or so I will have to borrow money from my wife to buy cigarettes. I don’t know what I will do about my weed and my booze. But I guess I will borrow money for those too.
I have been trying to get a freelancing job. But it’s not easy. I applied for more than a dozen freelancing jobs on a few websites. I got a small job but no luck with others. For the one job that I did land, I have worked 3.5 hours, for a total sum of $6.90.
Can’t give up. Need money desperately. I applying for new freelance jobs. It will be great if I could get a job that needs 20-30 hours per week with a large per hour rate. That would be ideal.